Let’s analyze this godawful tweet about injecting poison out of love

speech pattern analysis of @SolNataMD's January 1 tweet about the vaxx

I don’t usually start with the conclusion but after reading and re-reading this tweet, I’m very concerned about the woman who wrote the words you see in the screenshot below. I believe she is having a spiritual and possibly psychological crisis as she starts to see that she’s been conned for three years by people she believed would never lie, or certainly never lie about that. I pray she has the fortitude to handle the complete obliteration of her blinders. Here’s why: she’s no mean girl/sociopath like the ghostwriter behind Emily Oster. Dr Natalia Solenkova is a doctor who has spent years helping and healing people. Now, in the power dynamic, everyone who was forced or coerced to receive the vaxx was a victim, and everyone who injected the vaxx (to a coerced recipient) was a perpetrator. One could say that this doctor essentially aided and abetted the perpetrators by browbeating people, from her position of authority as a doctor, to get the experimental mRNA gene therapy shot. The cognitive dissonance between her perception of self as being a good person who does good things and her newfound feelings of shame and guilt as she starts to perceive herself as a bad person who did a bad thing is, in my view, causing a very real state of derangement.

These are the words of a woman on the verge of a psychic break:

I even thought it could possibly be a parody account, but I found her on youtube (scroll down to the bottom if you’d like to see).

Let’s start our speech pattern analysis.

The first line:

“I will never regret the vaccine.”

Forget will. That implies regret in the future. She feels regret right now. The lady doth protest too much. It reminds me of the funny meme going around:

No one:

Me: “I’ll never regret the vaccine!!! Never!!”

Ok — no one thought you did, Doc, but now that you deny it just randomly on a Sunday, it makes me wonder if actually you maybe really really do.

Then she goes on to say, “Even if it turns out I injected actual poison and have only days to live.”

Now, English isn’t her native language but it’s still an interesting slip of the tongue. She meant, “even if it turns out I was injected with actual poison and have only days to live.” But instead — because most of us feel compelled to confess when we feel guilt — she admits the increasingly likely horrifying possibility, that she herself as a frontline Doctor throughout this whole pandemic INJECTED ACTUAL POISON … into other human beings, patients she took the Hippocratic oath to never ever harm.

The next sentence has another little word order issue, but it’s not significant this time. She says, “My heart was and is in the right place.”

Ok, remember the last time you said or someone said to you, “your heart was in the right place”? It’s something we say to others when they feel bad about something they did or said that was mildly embarrassing. Our friend: “I feel so stupid!” Us: “It’s not that big of a deal; I think she knew your heart was in the right place.” It absolves us of guilt — and subsequent punishment — because we didn’t have the intent to cause harm. It’s a confession of sin to Father Twitter. She knows she did something terribly horribly wrong, something she feels wretched about and wants desperately for someone — anyone — to tell her that her heart was in the right place and magically wave away all her guilt and shame.

It’s also interesting that she unconsciously chose the word heart: is the human body part we call the heart something she’s thinking about a lot? If so, why? She’ll tell us in the next line. (Cough cough, pericarditis, cough cough.)

“I got vaccinated out of love while anti-vaxxers did everything out of hate.” If I were a betting woman, I would bet that she has at least seen the preview of the documentary “Died Suddenly.” If not, some other study or data set showing how much damage the vaccine has done to young people’s hearts, is what is triggering this twitter tantrum. But I suspect either way that it’s something she associates with “anti-vaxxers” because she’s lashing out at them. THEY are the threat to her very sense of self as being a good person who does good things and helps people because THEY are the ones MAKING HER SEE, forcing her to acknowledge the poison part of the vaccine because they won’t SHUT UP ABOUT IT!! And she *hates* it which is why she projects her hate onto “antivaxxers.”

Now, you know and I know that no one gets a vaccine out of love. People give a kidney out of love. People get vaccines from a place of obedience and compliance. (People told everyone who would listen to google anti-body dependence enhancement — out of love!!)

So there’s a lot of denial here and that’s bad. The greater the denial, the more threatened her sense of self as the good doctor is.

Then she says, “If I have to die because of my love for the world, then so be it.” This is astonishing because it’s practically drawing a comparison between herself and Jesus Christ. She’s the savior, willing to die — to be sacrificed — out of love for the world. What’s also of grave concern to me is that her declaration of being willing to die is dangerously close to a declaration of a desire to die. Death would be the ultimate punishment for injecting actual poison into people.

Finally, she says, “But I will never regret or apologize for it.” Defiance!! Defiant denial. And — no one asked her to apologize! But regret and apologies are all she can think about which is why she brings it up. Profound remorse is fighting to surface through the soil of her subconscious mind.

Let’s go into her head now and analyze the cognitive dissonance that likely precipitated the tweet. Maybe she watched Died Suddenly or she watched someone die suddenly in her medical practice or the family member of someone close to her, healthy and under 50, dropped dead. Very suddenly. Maybe all three, over the course of a few days. Her feelings of powerlessness, of despair, would be overwhelming. She might try to think her way through her feelings.

I am a doctor.

I am a good person because I help people.

I don’t hurt people; I even took an oath affirming I wouldn’t.

Bad people do bad things. I would never hurt people.

If the vaxx turns out to be poison, and I promoted poison, then I did a bad thing.

But only bad people do bad things.

That would mean that I am bad.

Bad people do bad things.

Eruptions of multiple conflicting emotions might be washing over her at this point: shame, guilt, regret, horror. When people with an intact moral compass get to this dark of a psychic space, there are only 2 ways out: 1) seeking punishment (but I posit that extremely strong personalities alternatively seek atonement) either from authority or through self-punishment OR path 2) denial. Total denial of the burgeoning awareness of wrong-doing. So they end up in a justification hell-loop. And sometimes the cognitive dissonance is so devastating that it causes derangement.

And that’s what this tweet is: a nonsensical justification of bad behavior that burst forth from a state of derangement.

In order for her to avoid feeling a life-threatening amount of shame, she would feel compelled to stop reflecting on the moral implications of injecting actual poison (her words!) and justify it as much as humanly possible. My heart was in the right place! I LOVE people! I love the whole WORLD!

Dear God, please help this woman.

I posit that the emotion guilt is derived from regret, so if we say, “I feel guilty,” we could pinpoint the source by asking ourselves, “what action did I take that I regret?” Where guilt says, “I feel so bad that I hurt so-and-so/myself by doing …,” shame says, “I am bad.” It’s possible to feel shame and guilt at the same time of course too. But we can learn from regret: we can ask, what can I do or not do to prevent future pain of the same nature? Shame is different. Shame is a cruel warden who locks us in a cell where no atonement is possible because shame precludes redemption.

Guilt says, I did something bad. I deserve punishment (or, I will seek to atone).

Shame says, I AM bad. I don’t deserve to exist.

And you know what that means. Feeling we should no longer stay alive. That is why I am so worried about the line where she says she’s willing to die. I think she wants her heart to stop, so she can get the punishment she feels she deserves.

Here is what I suggest be said to her:

Dr. Solenkova, you are a victim. You were lied to as we all were. We don’t expect you to be smarter than the liars just because you’re a doctor. You DID do what you thought was right. And people who didn’t get the vaccine also did what they thought was right. If it turns out that you did in fact inject actual poison, you can work with a therapist on your feelings of regret and shame, and then engage in the spiritual practice of atonement. Do not kill yourself or wish your heart would stop. You are human and flawed as we all are. I posit to you that there are no good or bad people, only good or bad or neutral actions. We can’t go back; instead ask yourself, what action can I take to prevent future pain of the same nature?

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